time to start blogging again.

discovering me ;

discovering somebody who understands exactly how it feels,

to be alone in the darkness, with endless thoughts flooding the mind.

although a lil' different, from a different perspective, different thoughts going through the mind,

different loved ones,

but all in all, sad, lonely, vulnerable.

the only thing that is asked for is a voice, a company.

but being pushed aside thinking feeling this way is pathetic, ridiculous.

once again, expectations, caused disappointment.

a 'lil sweet talk to cheer up the mood.

a 'lil reassurance that he'll always be there.

none.

" you're the main priority in my life now. I will take any bullet yet shit that goes my way. "

" if you need someone to just hold you tight . "

i blame myself for being too aggressive.

once i stop making a move,

nothing will happen.

first to look for you, run to you.

' he loved her most when she loved him least. '

how i wish that was true enough to be shown for me to believe it.

give up, enough. done. no more trying.

a new month.

just noticed the 'about me' on my blog still says "last year being a school girl".

kinda obvious I haven't blogged using blogspot in awhile..

okay, maybe more than awhile.

can't believe I've been in college for almost a month now..

sigh. high school :/

okay that's not the point.

it's CNY holidays! :D

cw and I,

baking cookies for CNY :D

come my house "pai nian", I'll offer you cookies. :3

got this from tumblr.

Happy Chinese New Year. :)

p/s: if Kee Wen ever come across this, Happy Birthday. :P

bye, high school

car wash :3

been visiting colleges with ....

Ong

& Leli :P

I'm actually not there to enquire , I'm just there to accompany them .

feels kinda weird & exciting at the same time watching them worrying about college .

because they're the type of people who just wants to have fun and never gave a damn about education.

but it's a good thing. :D

whoever's going Inti , see you there . :P

- - -

after that, went 1u with 4 girls.

shopping day!

Diane & I yang tak tau malu :P

all girl outing!

thanks for driving , Diane. :D

well , I guess I'm not saying bye to blogspot afterall.

I can't post about my daily stuff at tumblr right .... right ?

but , I do have tumblr now !

it's the same link as my blogspot , haha .

going shopping with jitqi , again !

life after SPM , before college starts , rocks . :P

ciao !

MIA.

well , I finally found the time to update this thing .

a little late for me , but yeah , SPM's over ! (:

before SPM , I was expecting the after SPM feeling would be like , unimaginable .

am I happy ? not really.

am I relieved ? a little.

am I less busy ? nope .

in fact , I'm busier . hah :D

I feel more of .... regret .

regret that I should've studied harder for SPM, thinking that my results is gonna totally suck. and I don't even wanna begin talking about accounts.

but yeap , it's over.

the moment accounts was over , 'til now , I haven't had the chance to catch my breath .

*breathes in

okay, so I've been busy.

in a good way I guess, going out, hanging out with friends. (:

Meeples.

it's a new place in ss15,

it's kinda like ... a CC , just that you play board games there instead of computer games.

right after Accounts , went to watch Rapunzel with those people, at pyramid.

majority of the people in the cinema were form5's, especially seafieldians. (:

great movie. :D

yeah, then we went meeples. (:

Friday, woke up about 12pm.

oh. so. awesome.

haven't woke up so late in a looong time.

then, went to the twins' house,

for a lil' Scout gathering. (;

we watched a Scout movie titled " Goodbye Boys" and "Charlie St. Cloud".

then, we (mostly Smun) made dinner!

great day.

Scouties, we MUST meet at least one month once next year.

keep in touch! love you guys. :')

Saturday, pyramid.

Happy Birthday, dear Bryan (:

thank you for an awesome meal @ Secret Recipe.

hope you had a great day.

I really appreciate you as a friend. (:

then,

Callie & I, @ Midvalley.

& that's free cotton candy! wee! :D

went out with qingxian, leslie, daniel, kenxi & callie.

did lots of stupid things.

no, really. (:

because it was a public holiday,

we searched for parking in midvalley for like, an hour.

and if that's not crazy enough,

we went ...

Giant.

no really, haha.

steamboat @ Daniel's house.

other things are just need no to be said. :P

thanks for fetching me around, Qingxian.

see most of you guys @ inti (;

Sunday, ceramah for driving with Denise, Leon & Ting Mun. C:

FUN!

Today, hung out at condo. hi mingyeaw! :D

okaaaay, this is probably the last post for me here.

byebye blogspot , hello tumblr ! :P

nah, still considering.

full schedule for December. :O

BYE.

SPM.

yay. 3 more daysss. :D

long-term PMS.

now I feel stressed.

now I'm freaking out.

now I feel like just breaking down and cry.

but I didn't.

this feels unreal.

I want it to be over soon.

but I don't want it to come so soon either.

nothing's right these days.

feel. so. not. ready.

sensitive. down. moody.

yes. I feel like I'm having a month long of PMS.

And I don’t even know what kind of things I said,

My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead,

Picking up those pieces now where to begin,

The hardest part of ending is starting again.

; waiting for the end - linkin park